Living Like A Bird

Osprey by <a href='http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Osprey_mg_9605.jpg' target='_blank'>Marc Schulman</a>

Osprey by Marc Schulman

I’ve got this whole two-species vibe going ever since I was 14. I’ve had an unnatural fascination with birds that has spilled over from my personal life into my professional life.

A significant portion of you are familiar with this little dichotomy. I’ve been featured at a few Furry conventions over the years and my popularity among the animal-savvy seems to be growing. The fact that some of my Second Life fans still haven’t seen me in person as a human makes for a unique image to uphold. There are a lot of people, however, who just want to hear the music.

For the “normal” people out there, I’m just your average piano rocker trying to eke out a living in the music business. I can’t exactly hide my fascination with the Pandion Haliaetus, but fortunately most of you don’t seem to be weirded out by it. I’m not the guy with the ears and tail at the shopping mall, nor am I anything you’ve read about in Vanity Fair or seen on TV. If you’d like to compare me to those freak shows, I will happily find the choicest representatives of your hobbies or religions and write about them for you.

No, I’ve just had the usual fascination with animals and, in particular, Osprey. When I was younger (up to and including last week) I spoke to an imaginary friend- a 6-foot tall humanoid osprey. I even wrote a musical incorporating a friend of his as my senior project in college. I spent over a decade writing a 400-page novel about the world my avian friend comes from… I’m hoping that someday I can share it with you, but it needs some serious revisions that I just can’t focus on right now.

When you consider that anthropomorphism has played a major role in everything from religions to sporting events for thousands of years, it should surprise no one that some of us feel drawn to an animal that represents something we admire or covet. If you think this is odd, you haven’t taken a look at your favorite sports teams recently- chances are good they’re represented by an animal. So is your local gas station. Jesus Christ was called both a lion and a lamb, depending on the verse. We name our attack helicopters and fighter jets after birds of prey and Indian tribes. For that matter, those Indian tribes believe in spirits personified by the animals from their surrounding territory.

It honestly makes me sad when I encounter people who don’t entertain these kinds of concepts. If all you’ve thought about are things you’ve seen in this world, you are living in a very limited space. You’re trapped in a studio apartment with no windows- you may be content with your surroundings and your life, but I believe you suffer from an imaginative agoraphobia. Once you’ve seen what’s outside the walls of normality, you might wonder how you existed before.

Do I write songs about birds? Not a whole lot. I’ve written about cows more often than I’ve written about birds, to be honest. I write about what I experience, and I haven’t experienced birdness yet. The bird thing is more of a constant fascination- something that I feel drawn to in a way that I just can’t quantify. I wish I could be a bird, that’s for certain, but until I disappear in a cloud of feathers I want my fans to understand one of my long-term fixations. It’s a fun world to immerse myself in from time to time, and it affects my daily life in tiny ways I’m not aware of.

What are you drawn to? What’s the little non-sequitir that exists in your daily life, making things a bit more interesting? How are you using that?

Update: I love hearing from all of my friends who already get this stuff, but if you’re a “normal” person and are a bit shy about commenting, please respond to this anyway!

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  • JunoKing

    Everyone is fixated with birds, it's something about being able to freely go where you want when you. Myself, i actually wanted to be a tiger for the longest, just to know how it would feel to be so powerful and graceful, dig?

  • Rhainor

    Nicely put, Matt. I can certainly understand the fascination with birds (I enjoy watching most raptors, myself), although my main obsession is with another creature of the sky (albeit a bit farther from this reality): Dragons.

  • Dad

    Matt:

    I was walking on the beach last week, and saw our first osprey of the season… actually the first two. The one that drew my attention was a youngster that had just caught its first fish. Man, was it making a racket! Then I saw the parent, circling above it, proud as could be. Both making noise that sounded strangely like: “Atta boy!” or “Good eye!” Do you think an osprey has fantasy dreams of being in little league?

    Dad

  • http://matthewebel.com Matthew Ebel

    Oh heck no… they plan on taking on MLB teams directly. The avian uprising will strike Safeco field soon…

    …until then they will continue striking the parking lot.

  • Sethor

    I can certainly dig what you're saying here Matt. For me its white tigers, and while the main animal I'm drawn to has changed over time, they have always been large felines. Everything you describe here sounds as though osprey, as an animal, may be spiritual for you and your life, and something worth investigating more if you feel like it.

  • Anonymous

    Everyone is fixated with birds, it’s something about being able to freely go where you want when you. Myself, i actually wanted to be a tiger for the longest, just to know how it would feel to be so powerful and graceful, dig?

  • Rhainor

    Nicely put, Matt. I can certainly understand the fascination with birds (I enjoy watching most raptors, myself), although my main obsession is with another creature of the sky (albeit a bit farther from this reality): Dragons.

  • Dad

    Matt:

    I was walking on the beach last week, and saw our first osprey of the season… actually the first two. The one that drew my attention was a youngster that had just caught its first fish. Man, was it making a racket! Then I saw the parent, circling above it, proud as could be. Both making noise that sounded strangely like: “Atta boy!” or “Good eye!” Do you think an osprey has fantasy dreams of being in little league?

    Dad

  • http://matthewebel.com Matthew Ebel

    Oh heck no… they plan on taking on MLB teams directly. The avian uprising will strike Safeco field soon…

    …until then they will continue striking the parking lot.

  • Sethor

    I can certainly dig what you’re saying here Matt. For me its white tigers, and while the main animal I’m drawn to has changed over time, they have always been large felines. Everything you describe here sounds as though osprey, as an animal, may be spiritual for you and your life, and something worth investigating more if you feel like it.

  • http://www.ChristopherSPenn.com Christopher S. Penn

    I've honed more economic and market analysis skills in World of Warcraft than in any other venue, giving me massive insight into how people behave in large groups and how market theories apply to them. Just a game? Not hardly.

  • http://www.ChristopherSPenn.com Christopher S. Penn

    I’ve honed more economic and market analysis skills in World of Warcraft than in any other venue, giving me massive insight into how people behave in large groups and how market theories apply to them. Just a game? Not hardly.

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  • Rox360

    You may not write about birds, but they show up! I don't know whether you mean to or not. Ten thousand feathers accounts for a few of 'em, there were hawks outside the window, and hope apparently has feathers, too. Of course, birds are very easy to write about and be inspired by. They're the only wild animal that dares to hang around us pesky humans, and that don't crawl around under our floorboards or have more than four legs.

    I've got an imaginary friend, too, in a way. He's not a bird, but he seems to have an unhealthy fascination with them. If I'd made him to be everything I want to be, he would be a bird. But instead I made him everything I am, so he has the same dreams that I do. It'd be nice to be able to fly. Even for just a while. Even just to sit on a rooftop for a while and get some perspective. Or to get away from the noisy people below.

    I could write a song about that. It is strange that not all people have those kinds of thoughts, or like to share them…

  • http://matthewebel.com Matthew Ebel

    Well, to be fair, 10,000 Feathers was a song I wrote for a magician's dove act. So while it was written about birds, it was for a specific set of birds, not my fascination with them. ;)

    But yeah, they do work their way into my tunes on occasion. I just haven't done any albums or songs specifically ABOUT them.

  • Anonymous

    You may not write about birds, but they show up! I don’t know whether you mean to or not. Ten thousand feathers accounts for a few of ‘em, there were hawks outside the window, and hope apparently has feathers, too. Of course, birds are very easy to write about and be inspired by. They’re the only wild animal that dares to hang around us pesky humans, and that don’t crawl around under our floorboards or have more than four legs.

    I’ve got an imaginary friend, too, in a way. He’s not a bird, but he seems to have an unhealthy fascination with them. If I’d made him to be everything I want to be, he would be a bird. But instead I made him everything I am, so he has the same dreams that I do. It’d be nice to be able to fly. Even for just a while. Even just to sit on a rooftop for a while and get some perspective. Or to get away from the noisy people below.

    I could write a song about that. It is strange that not all people have those kinds of thoughts, or like to share them…

  • http://matthewebel.com Matthew Ebel

    Well, to be fair, 10,000 Feathers was a song I wrote for a magician’s dove act. So while it was written about birds, it was for a specific set of birds, not my fascination with them. ;)

    But yeah, they do work their way into my tunes on occasion. I just haven’t done any albums or songs specifically ABOUT them.

  • http://beya-chan.deviantart.com beyachan

    I have a facination with all things fictional and mythological. I'm decidedly a Christian, though I've never read the Bible and I've read my book on Greek mythology like ten times. ^^;
    I spend more time off in my own little fantasy world than I do interacting with people in real life, resulting in people seeing me as “introverted” or “quiet”, when I'm really not at all. I just can't get close to people who live only in the here and now. People without dreams and fantasies are just not fun to be around.
    I don't have an imaginary friend, per se, not one that I speak to out loud anyway, but I have multiple people I converse with in my head. Not that that's a bad thing, you know. It keeps me creative. I roleplay with my friends and I use my art as an outlet for all of this, so it's actually pretty productive.
    And I wish I were as focused as you, Matt. I have an entire freakin series planned out in my head, and I've yet to write anything for it.

  • http://beya-chan.deviantart.com beyachan

    I have a facination with all things fictional and mythological. I’m decidedly a Christian, though I’ve never read the Bible and I’ve read my book on Greek mythology like ten times. ^^;
    I spend more time off in my own little fantasy world than I do interacting with people in real life, resulting in people seeing me as “introverted” or “quiet”, when I’m really not at all. I just can’t get close to people who live only in the here and now. People without dreams and fantasies are just not fun to be around.
    I don’t have an imaginary friend, per se, not one that I speak to out loud anyway, but I have multiple people I converse with in my head. Not that that’s a bad thing, you know. It keeps me creative. I roleplay with my friends and I use my art as an outlet for all of this, so it’s actually pretty productive.
    And I wish I were as focused as you, Matt. I have an entire freakin series planned out in my head, and I’ve yet to write anything for it.

  • http://beya-chan.deviantart.com beyachan

    I have a facination with all things fictional and mythological. I'm decidedly a Christian, though I've never read the Bible and I've read my book on Greek mythology like ten times. ^^;
    I spend more time off in my own little fantasy world than I do interacting with people in real life, resulting in people seeing me as “introverted” or “quiet”, when I'm really not at all. I just can't get close to people who live only in the here and now. People without dreams and fantasies are just not fun to be around.
    I don't have an imaginary friend, per se, not one that I speak to out loud anyway, but I have multiple people I converse with in my head. Not that that's a bad thing, you know. It keeps me creative. I roleplay with my friends and I use my art as an outlet for all of this, so it's actually pretty productive.
    And I wish I were as focused as you, Matt. I have an entire freakin series planned out in my head, and I've yet to write anything for it.

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